Post by xxxgothickittenxxx on Sept 24, 2009 18:08:59 GMT -5
¥A thorn in my side¥ (Hollyleaf fanfiction)
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OOC~ After reading Sunrise I wondered what would happen if Hollyleaf chose to kill Leafpool instead of letting her live... Even though I don't like Hollyleaf much (I'm starting to), I am intrigued by how her mind works. So I decided to peel back her personality and see what she saw, and how she'd think when attacking her mother. A bit of HollyXSol action in the future hopefully. XD Sorry for the intense suckiness. So should I continue writing? (Oh and please offer some pointers, I'd like to be an author one day so don't go easy on me. I really want to improve.)
-Chapter 1-
"I've killed once," I snarled. "And I can do it again." And this time the warrior code meant nothing to me. The thing I held closest to my heart had been broken into so many pieces there was no chance of putting it back together. And why should it matter? I wasn't even meant to be born, I was spawned from a web of lies. A medicine cat forbidden to have kits has kits, and not just that, had them from another Clan cat. It made me sick, all I wanted was this liar, this traitor to suffer. She made me believe I was a true ThunderClan warrior, someone with full clan blood, I believed the warrior code was flawless. But now everything I believed, everything I loved fell around me like a rush of cold water and I wanted it to stop. And it would.
"Hollyleaf," Leafpool mewed. "I have lost my kits, the one cat I loved, and my calling as a medicine cat. Which do you think would be easier for me, to die or to go on living?" The answer was obvious, but I wasn't born yesterday. I knew she was just trying to buy more time so she can live, and what? Spread more lies? I wasn't going to give her another chance to hurt me, the warrior code, or the Clan. With a hiss I lunged forward and since that stupid she-cat had no real training she didn't even fend me off, my claws held her shoulders as my teeth sank into her throat. The salty iron tang of blood never tasted so good, I was done with her. No more lies, the Clan would be safe from her selfishness. I expected her to fight me off, but she went completely limp. Was she even trying? I could feel the strain in her muscles as she braced the pain I dug into her neck, and I reavled in her agony. I peeked at her expression, longing to see the fear and pain; maybe she'd feel the betrayel I felt. But no, her amber eyes were full of sorrow and... relief? Before I could release my grip her body went limp, blood dripped from her mouth and stained the ground. No... She didn't suffer, she was glad to die. That piece of fox-
"Hollyleaf?" A stunned gasp came from behind, and I felt my fur stand on end when I met sightless blue eyes. Jayfeather's whiskers twitched, "What's going on? There's so much blood..." He broke off. "Did you-?" "Leave me alone!" I shouldered him aside, let him greive for his stupid mother. His mentor, the traitor. It would take him a moment to realize, the blood choked the air in the den so perhaps he wouldn't know about Leafpool just yet. But he could sense my hatred, he would put two and two together easily. Or he could use his 'gift' and read my mind, it didn't matter anymore.
Storming out of the den I didn't care about the blood that dripped from my mouth, I pushed my way out of the thorn entrance, my emerald eyes ablaze with fury. Through the trees I saw a pelt of golden flame, it was Firestar- no it was Lionblaze! I veered from the throng of cats coming to the camp and forced my way into thorns and needles. But it didn't matter, my eyes burned with angry tears as I ran. This was once my home, but now no one would ever look at me the same way again. I had to think, where could I go? Maybe I could go to the hills and live as a loner, no I was a Clan cat. I had to get rid of this pain somehow... The tunnels! I picked up my pace and charged toward the tunnels where we saved the WindClan kits, it may be flooded but at least it would do what I wanted it to; unlike my life.
"Wait!" Jayfeather's paw steps sounded behind me, for a blind cat he sure was fast. When I felt his breath at my heels I whipped around and snarled, "Stay away from me!" He froze in his place, his unblinking eyes were unreadable. "Why did you do it?" The medicine cat asked at last. "Why did you kill our mother?" The word 'mother' raked my mind like claws, and I had to resist the urge to swipe his ear. "She wasn't our mother! Mother's love, protect, and nuture their kits. They tell them the truth, they would use the warrior code as a shield; not something they can break just because they have a 'special' connection with their ancestors!" I never felt so angry before, my black fur bristled until I stood taller than Lionblaze himself. "Leafpool was a pathetic piece of fox dung that lied to our faces! She didn't deserve to live, she didn't deserve to be a medicine cat! So I made sure she couldn't hurt us, or our Clan anymore!" I expected understanding, but all I could see was horror and revulsion in his face. Jayfeather was just like the others, he thought I was a crazy murderer. I didn't kill Ashfur because I liked it, I did it because I had to keep the secret safe. And Leafpool...
"They won't understand," I growled, feeling more wretched and alone than I ever had. "Like Leafpool the Clan will see me as nothing more than a half-clan traitor, they won't see what I've done for them!" Jayfeather narrowed his eyes and replied steadily, "The warrior code was everything to you at one time you know..." I crouched low. "Don't you get it? Our birth alone breaks everything the warrior code stands for, us exsisting? It wasn't meant to be... I'm so sorry," I mewed. "I'm just trying to do what's right. That's why I had to get rid of Ashfur. For all our sakes; you understand me right?" From behind Jayfeather I heard a gasp. "You killed him?" Peering over my brother's shoulder I saw amber eyes stare back in shock, Lionblaze emerged, towering over both of us. Again they both couldn't see what I saw. Just like when we were back at the mountains, I had a cool idea about our powers giving us the gift of flight. But all Lionblaze saw was cats looking stupid with wings; he didn't have any imagination. My fur grew hot, what could I do? I could babble on all night about what was right and wrong but they couldn't, no they wouldn't see it. They saw their pitiful, crazed sister killing cats left and right. Ashfur and Leafpool both deserved to die; for the sake of not just the Clans. But for them all!
"He should have been swept into the lake and never seen again," I growled, imagining the traitor's gray fur floating down the river of blood. The plan seemed so flawless at that time, he'd be gone and the secret would be safe. The prophecy could go on, and so could Clan life. But my simple mistake costed us our future, there was no prophecy. And there never would be. From Jayfeather's distant expression I knew he was reaching into my memories. "But now they've found him, and now everything is ruined! I can't stay here." They both lurched as I turned away and charged into the tunnels. "Hollyleaf wait, let's talk about this!" Jayfeather called, I could always trust him to look after me. But Lionblaze, he was just like his mother, traitorous. Loves a WindClan flea-bag, I hoped he'd understand his stupidity before it costed him everything. The ground trembled beneath my paws but I ignored common sense, Jayfeather's desperate cries faded into nothing as the tunnel caved in. Everything cracked and smashed around me, dirt and rock piling in and darkening the world I once thought was perfect. Pressure closed in on my chest, I fell to the ground and everything became dark. It was so peaceful when everything became silent. Such bliss.
Please continue writing, Tiger! (And I think you would make it as an author. 
